I’ve taken a rather long hiatus since the last time I posted. To be honest with you all, I kind of needed it. There were things happening that needed to end and others that needed to begin. Then, those things had to end causing me to crash mentally. Someone told me once that if I hadn’t published anything I wasn’t a writer. Well, not only is that person a close personal friend, he was also dead wrong about his assumptions. No matter how sure he was that he was correct on what determines whether or not someone is a writer is not whether they are published or not (it helps but that’s not the point) by definition writers don’t have to be published to be able to consider themselves what they are; authors, however, do need to be published for their credibility.

I often struggled to determine what to do with this blog. I have such a small audience that the little negative voice in my head was like “meh, throw it away we won’t do anything with it.” I decided not to based on the fact that I may very well want a platform independent of social media to talk about things, then have my close friends and family read my work and spread word of it if they see fit to do so if what I said could give someone hope or new useful knowledge then I have done my job as a writer. I recently understood a fact that has eluded me for a very long time. The fact is that I don’t have to say anything new to be a good writer, I don’t have to say profound things in order to be considered “worthy of the title”. I realized that there are people that don’t have the experiences that I do and could possibly benefit from me telling my stories, if for nothing else than to encourage people to keep going and be persistent. I became aware that not everyone is as well-read as me, and there are some that are more so but they would not be my target audience. There are people that don’t understand why things happen the way they do and some of my perspectives may be useful to them, I could act as a translator for other writers that came before me.

Now, someone might say, ” But P. Biscuits don’t’ you have to do a lot of reading for that to occur. Short answer: yeah. However, I have read many things that made such an impact that I have an intimate knowledge of the material and sometimes the authors. My goal isn’t to tell people what to think. It gives people things to consider in the short and maybe long term. If I’m going to be honest with you, I’ve gone through a lot over the past few years. Some of my regular audience would know mostly how that all went down. For those who don’t understand, I lost a relationship, a degree, and my job in one fell swoop. Granted, the job was pretty shitty anyhow, but the point is I had plans to use that job to move. A young friend gave me some advice. He told me that the warehouse job I was working for a major corporation would chew me up and spit me out like the military did and that I should follow my passions. *aaayeeee, look at what I’m doing right now!!!!* many people have told me I have a particular talent and should exercise it more than I have been. I’ve had time to recover; I just now need direction. I would like to talk about topics. This is where my audience interaction should come into play. I want to make this a regular place where people visit online to learn something new. Whether it be how to navigate mental illness, deal with abusive relationships, or hell, I’d settle for trying to make people laugh. Either way, the pack I’ve been carrying is full of junk that I don’t need, and it’s weighing me down, metaphorically speaking. It’s time for change and to get a new pack to fill with the latest tools and new memories to carry around for the second half of my life. Until next time, P. Biscuits…. out.

“What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us.” – Henry David Thoreau